Nothing to Write

These past few days were busy time for me. The busyness I used to be. The out-of-time meals. The over staying at the office. Phone calls and emails everywhere. Reports and projects with deadlines. Oh yes, busy as a bee as my bestfriend calls it.

And today it's still 30minutes before the clock ticks 5pm but I'm too lazy to start another work. It's either I'll do overtime or I'll mess up with it. But I need to leave at 5pm. So I decided to write a blog instead.

Hmmm, but what will I write? I have another topic that I started days ago but can't find the right time to complete it though.

Well, lately I feel how "nakakasakal" is. Too much time with that person, too much talk with another, too much words to say until I feel like stopping or avoiding it. Maybe I have so much things in my mind that's why I feel this way. Maybe because the holiday season is here. Maybe a lot of preparations to do. Maybe I'm just thinking that I'm feeling it. A lot of maybe's. No matter the reason is, I know this will pass and there's a lesson in it. I still cannot figure what is it for now, my mind is numb to think of it yet. But I believe there is a lesson to learn...

He will be missed

We are colleagues but we only communicate through emails and calls. Until the year 2006 I was given a chance to meet him in person in one of our trainings. First impression - silent, warm, "usual" American, and oh I can't understand his words clearly, they're so slang. We've been together in that training for more than one week. We usually have our dinner and breakfast together since we were booked at the same hotel. On those times I've learned that he is very warm, very silent (won't-talk-unless-you-initiate-the-conversation), very intelligent (he was in the academe for years), very hardworking, and he is a Christian. I also learned that he leads a bible study group, that he and his wife are active in the ministry, that his kids go to missionary trips when on vacation and that he works for God. At the end of the training, I gave him my accountability card. I don't know if he kept or used it.

We usually talk about work. But there are also times that we talk about our faith and share how we experienced God. I remember I sent him the testimony I shared in our church and he asked my permission to share it to the rest of his friends in our US office. Then in one of those times, he shared about his special son. By merely looking at him, you wouldn't expect that he can be open to others, especially about his family. Or maybe I judged him to be so reserved.

Physically, he is about 6'5" tall, huge built, white skinned, with brown eyes and brown hair. This big man keeps a very soft and kind heart. Upon learning about his son, our bond became more than colleagues. When we have time, we will talk about our personal as well as our spiritual life. There was this moment that we both feel spiritually weak, and the stories we shared with each other were enough to boast our spirit again. He would tell me that I am always in his prayers, especially when I travel. I was amazed the first time I heard it from him, I didn't know that God gave me a father more than a colleague in him. Though lately we don't usually talk, we both know that we keep our prayers for each other.

Until last week I received an email from him.

Ana,

I wanted to let you know before the announcement comes out that I have accepted a new position and will be leaving in February. I have really enjoyed our time working together and hope we can stay in touch...I will miss the consistent communication with you...I missed you while you were on vacation...

Those words were enough for my tears to fall. I was really sad. I felt like I am about to loose a very dear friend. Though we are still in the same company, but he will be moving to another business unit. Oh, I am missing him even now.

He assured me that we still keep in touch. And yes, life has to "move on". I stopped crying though I still feel sad especially at times when I think about our talks.

Yesterday my boss showed me an email from him, it reads:

Please take care of Ana. She's a treasure...

Bob, you are making me cry again . . .

Questions from A - Z

I like to know more about my friends so I'm fond of tagging or answering trivia questions. I snatched this one (does that make me a thief???) from a blog of my friend's friend. Hehehe. I hope the people I tagged will also enjoy as much as I did in answering each item. Here it goes...

A.) Attached or single? — Joyfully single
B.) Best friend? — Pam David, dgroup, my sisters
C.) Cake or pie? — Cake
D.) Day of choice? — Saturday, I love hanging out with my dgroup sisters.
E.) Essential item? — Bible. Cellphone. Pressed powder, sunblock, comb. Money!!!
F.) Favorite color? — My like for color is seasonal. But currently, I love yellow and green.
G.) Gummy bears or worms? — Gummy worms, it's easier to bite and chew.
H.) Hometown? — Bulacan.
I.) Favorite indulgence? — Fashmatch! So happy when it was brought back to the net. Yey!
J.) January or July? — January, everbody seems lazy that time eh, no need to hurry. Hahaha. Lazy me!
K.) Kids? — None yet. I hope to have when the time comes.
L.) Life isn’t complete without? — knowing God. Only then can one live his life to the fullest.
M.) Marriage date? — Wish I have the answer. Hahaha. Still waiting for my GB.
N.) Number of magazine subscriptions? – I haven’t subscribed to any. I usually read them at hair salons, clinics, airplanes – basta dun sa free. Hahaha
O.) Orange or apple? — Orange, I need fiber.
P.) Phobias? — None that I can think of. But I’m scared with crawling insects, pests, etc.
Q.) Quotes? — Pa cheeseburger ka naman! (Is it consider a quote? LOL).
R.) Reasons to smile? — jokes, mushy lines, profound words, transformed lives, moon, stars…
S.) Season of choice? — Summer. I don’t like cold weather.
T.) Tag 5 people – Pam, Minette, Clarisse, Monet, Shirley
U.) Unknown fact about me? – Artista ako. LOL
V.) Vegetable? — All high-fiber veggies!
W.) Worst habit? — Procrastinating. Dami plans, super konti natutuloy.
X.) X-ray or ultrasound? – X-ray. Tagal kasi ng ultrasound tapos may gel pa, nilalamig ako. Hahaha
Y.) Your favorite food(s)? – Sashimi, cheeseburger de luxe and fries ng McDo, pizza, pasta.
Z.) Zodiac Sign – Aries.

Longest time

(I hope you are not eating while you read this entry)

Have you had the longest time of your life? My question sounds crazy, I know. I know what crazy means . . . well at least for the last two days maybe.

It was my first time to taste white cream cheese. It was yummy and of course, very creamy. It was so nice with pandesal and hot coffee. It was so good that I ate three pandesals! That was about 10am.

Come 12nn, I still feel full. You see my digestion is not that efficient so when I eat much, I don't easily feel hungry after a number of hours. So I guess, its normal. 3pm I ate bread again. All is normal, as far as my tummy is concern.

I will be attending a meeting at 7pm that night. I was supposed to leave the office at 545pm but I was out by 6pm. Why? Because my tummy started to feel crazy! At maybe about 4pm, I felt a terrible pain. I just can't move but after a few minutes it was gone. I felt relieved but not before I decided to leave the office. I went to the "throne". That helped. Went to the meeting as normal. And before I slept that night, I visited the "throne" again.

The next day, I feel good. Back to usual routine at work. All is normal.

And then yesterday afternoon, my tummy went crazy again. I have to meet a friend at night and we decided to have dinner before listening to the message at church. Once again, I visited the "throne" before I met up with her. Thankfully, all night was good.

At 1am this morning, I was awaken by the crazyness inside me, that is, inside my tummy. I immediately got up from bed and seated on the throne. Oh man, I was there for almost one hour! The pain was really, really terrible. I felt like I was going to faint every time it attacks. I was already thinking of waking up my father to bring me to the hospital. But that was one o'clock in the morning! So there I was, sitting on the "throne", silently suffering that one-hour excruciating pain. That was the longest one-hour I waited in my life! I decided to get back to bed, thankfully I was able to get a good sleep. When I woke up this morning, I felt weak but not really, really weak. I went to work late. I told my boss I was not feeling well that early morning and he understood.

So far, I feel "sane" inside. Haha! I hope that crazyness won't attack anymore. I still don't know if it is because of that cream cheese because I was the only one who suffered that pain. About 10 of us ate that cheese. Anyway, I hope my stomach is on its way to normal. :)

By the way, we have ice cream at the office today. Choco pinipig flavor. Aaahh, too bad I did not eat. Need lots of self-control there, hehe. As my bestfriend said, better safe than sorry. :(

Once in a while

Jason Mraz, a 31-year old American singer-song writer. I like the sound of his music, relaxing and pop is one of my favorite. I'm not an avid fan so I don't really look for the lyrics. Until lately I often hear his songs and since Im a bit in the "boredom" mode, I looked at his profiles. He's an achiever, no doubt about it. I'm not sure if he is a believer but his website says that his songs are about what he sees in life. Got some of the lines from his songs:

Title: I'm Yours
Well you dawned on me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothin's going to stop me but the fine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Title: Remedy
When I fall in love I take my time
There's no needto hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turnoff the sun but I'm still gonna shine
And I'll tell you why
Becausethe remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerousliaison I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words I say
The tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
Because it all amounts tonothing in the end.


And he is cute in this photo. :)