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Monday, December 20, 2010

PUSH

This was a game forwarded to me by my bestfriend, we had so much fun when we did this together for the first time. And yes, this is my second try but this time using my own playlist. The results were as hilarious as the first. The first try was posted on my Facebook account.

Here are the game rules.

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3. Write the song (title) NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag as many people that you want to do this activity with (or at least those who would hopefully find this fun).

Below are my answers. Enjoy!

1. If someone says, "Are you okay?", you say...? Need you now (Lady Antebellum)

Hmmm, well that’s according to my playlist. Hehe

2. How would you describe yourself? Slide Away (Oasis)

Am I sliding away? Probably.

3. What do you like in a guy/girl? – Para Sayo (Parokya ni Edgar)

Sobrang mapagbigay naman. LOL!

4. How do you feel today? – Save Me (Remy Zero)

Oh yeah, please!

5. What is your life's purpose? – Soldier’s Daughter (Tonic)

Prequel to A Warrior is a Child blog.

6. What is your motto? – Feels so Good (Nyoy Volante)

If life could be good all the time.

7. What do your friends think of you? – Blind (Lifehouse)

If I am blind, how come they are my friends? LOL!

8. What do your parents think of you? – As Long As It Matters (Gin Blossoms)

Hmmm…so understanding.

9. What do you think about most often? – Big Machine (Goo Goo Dolls)

Do I?

10. What is 2 + 2? – Love Song for No One (John Mayer)

…so tired of being alone

11. What do you think of your best friend? – Songbird (Oasis)

This is much better than the song I got on my first try.

12. What is your life story? –Shes’ A Rebel (Greenday)
C’mon!

13. What do you want to be when you grow up? – Something To Be (Rob Thomas)

Isn’t it to be someone and not something?

14. What do you think of when you see the person you like? – Geek Stink Breath (Green Day)

Geek!

15. What will you dance to at your wedding? – Live Forever (Oasis)

Couldn’t it be so tiring? LOL!

16. What will they play at your funeral? – Creep (Radiohead)

Hahaha!

17. What is your hobby/interest? – Baby By (Justin Bieber ft. Ludacris)

Can’t believe I have this song! LOL!

18. What is your biggest fear? – Half the World Away (Oasis)

I don’t want to be so far from my loved ones.

19. What is your biggest secret? – Liberian Girl (Michael Jackson)

Even I didn’t know this secret. Haha!

20. What do you want right now? – You Wanted More (Tonic)

No satisfaction. Hehe.

21. What do you think of your friends? – Long Day (Matchbox Twenty)

I need to spend a long day for my long list of good friends!

22. What will your child's first words be? – Everything is Not Broken (John Mayer)

My baby is so optimistic!

23. What do you say when you look in the mirror? – Will You Be There (Michael Jackson)

I find this one creepy. What if I don’t see my reflection in the mirror???

24. What did you say in your sleep last night? – You Are What You Are, Beautiful (Christina Aguilera)

Yeah, yeah. LOL!

25. What will you post this as? – Push (Matchbox Twenty)

It’s not Complicated anymore. LOL!

Playful

I sent this message to a close friend: "love you"
The reply I got: "I love it"
Well, I don't know if it means the person loves my message or loves me. But the pronoun used was 'it".

Then another friend sent me this message: "love you"
I wanted to reply back: "I love you too"
But what I sent was: "goodnight"

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

A Year-end Story?

Isang buwan na lang and another year is over. Ang bilis talaga ng panahon, sabi nga nila. Totoo nga kayang bumibilis ang takbo ng orasan? Minsan napapaisip ako kung nababago ba ang speed ng pag-ikot ng mundo? Ngunit ang lahat naman ay ginawa ng Diyos na sakto lang, walang labis at walang kulang.

Noong nakaraang taon, may matinding pagsubok ang dumaan sa buhay ko. For the first time, I cried so hard because of heartache. Yung iyak na napapanood ko lang sa mga movies, na tingin ko pa nga ang OA (over acting). Pero totoo palang pag sobrang sakit, mapapaiyak ka na lang nang labis. Akala ko matindi na yun, pero mas matindi ang mga dumaan ngayong taon.

Sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon I was hurt by someone I considered one of my very best friends. Di ko alam nasasaktan pala sya sa mga ginagawa ko na ang akala ko naman ay okay lang sa kanya. Nung nalaman ko yun, nasaktan ako dahil may tinatago na pala syang hinanakit sa akin. Ngunit ang pinakamasakit ay ang pag-isipan nya ako ng di magagandang bagay. Nag-usap kami at sinabi nya sa akin lahat ng naramdaman at inisip nya. Sobrang sakit na marinig yun, halos hindi na makakita ang mga mata ko sa sobrang iyak. Hindi ko akalaing mapapag-isipan nya ako ng ganun. Ilang araw ko ring dinamdam yun. Ngunit nangibabaw ang pagmamahal namin sa isa’t isa. Sa ngayon, okay na kami. Sabi nya kalimutan na namin yun at humingi rin sya ng sorry sa akin.

Ngayong taong ding ito, my family went through a very difficult trial. Something unexpected happened to one of our dear loved ones. Yung kasabihang pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa, parang ganun ang naramdaman namin. At for the very first time, each of us cried, men and women in the family. And at that moment, my respect towards my father was even intensified. I know he was also hurting but since he is the leader of the family, he needed to encourage and strengthen us. He showed us the positive side of the situation. He reminded us of the love of God. I cried in gratefulness to the Lord for blessing me with a father like my Tatay.

At the last quarter of this year, I also experienced a slight depression (or maybe because of the previous trials that I went through) when one of the most precious friendships I have was tainted. Ang hirap din nung time na yun. On those moments that I needed a friend, di nya ako sinamahan. Inisip ko pa nga na siguro meron din syang pinagdadaanan kaya umiiwas sya sakin. I tried to reach out sa kanya, pero ang layo nya. Sabi nya sa akin lagi lang syang nandyan dahil kaibigan ko sya, ngunit nung mga oras na pinaka-kailangan ko sya, dun naman sya lumayo. Until we talked and I learned bakit sya lumalayo. Wala akong naramdaman nung nag-uusap kami, isang linggo yata ang lumipas bago nag sink in sa akin yung sinabi nya. And when I realized everything, I felt I lost another friend. Nag-flash back ang lahat, hirap pigilan ang luha. Nararamdaman ko naman na nagri-reach out sya, kaya lang di pa siguro ako handa na magtiwala muli. I still need to compose myself and wait for that time na pwede ko na ulit ibalik ang trust ko sa kanya. I know I also have my shares why that thing happened, kaya I also limit myself sa pakikipag usap sa kanya. As of now, I don’t know if what we had will be restored. Pero hopeful ako that God can make all things possible, hopeful ako that when He restores our friendship, it will be better that the one we had.

Sa lahat ng ito, namamangha pa rin ako especially when I heard again the footprints in the sand. Namamangha ako sa faithfulness and grace ni God towards me. Isang taon na that He’s is carrying me. Isang taon na there is only one set of footprints in the sand. Isang taon na at ni minsan wala akong narinig na reklamo or condemnation galing sa Daddy God ko.

Meron pang natitirang isang buwan sa taong ito, maganda or hindi ang dadating, sigurado ako that my God will stay the same. Nothing and no one can take away His love for me. He is my constant Companion, my very best Friend, my Protector, and my Shoulder to cry on. God, thank You, thank You that when You said that I am Your princess, You mean its truest meaning. The year 2010 may have been full of trials, but this year made me love You even more.