NUMB

In four weeks time, Christmas season will officially start in the Philippines. I’m not kidding, look at your calendar…

How fast time flies, or does it tick faster than before? It’s almost end of July which means that half of the year had passed without me noticing it. Philippines have her new president. More typhoons have come and gone. Oil prices keep on going up. Business is business as usual. Problems keep piling up.

As I write this blog, there really is nothing in my mind on how this can flow and end. I feel numb inside. Or is just my way of coping up with things that are happening around me? Have I become too preoccupied that I don’t care much on the passing time? Have I shut myself from the realities of this world? Does my life’s purpose take a stop after all? I keep on living each day, I keep on laughing, I keep on hurting, I keep on struggling, I keep on dreaming and I keep on loving. But why is there numbness inside?

Probably the reason why time flies fast is because people become busier than before. They have a lot of to-do’s that 24 hours is not enough to complete them all. Maybe the world keeps each of us working on one thing after the other. Maybe time hasn’t change, but people and circumstances do. Wherever I am in my time right now, I hope I’ll get this over soon. I want “it” back. I want to wake up and be “me” again…or will “this” keep on passing until I get used to it and lived by it?