Tearless Cry

Why do I feel this bad whenever you shut me off? I attempted in so many times to open up but on each try, you responded differently. I think I can’t blame me if I’m distancing myself from you. I feel like you don’t want to enter my world anymore. It pains me…really. You’re so different now. And I miss the old you. I need you now more than ever. But I can’t feel your presence; all I see is the wall that was invisibly built between us. I want to believe that the friendship will still be saved but on each passing time, I can feel that the hope becomes dimmer and dimmer. I want to be far from you – to protect myself from the pain of losing you. I have so much hurt in my heart that bearing the thought of you slowly going out of my life is too hard. My heart is crushing inside, it’s too painful.